Sunday, May 20, 2012

Evil Is Back

Dear All,

First of all I would like to say I am sorry that I am really scarce these day.

Some people are hard to find during certain periods. Example: Football seasons or something of that sort. Thats all I can come up with to justify that what I do and the seriousness I put in it isn't so stupid nor silly.

I go scarce when specific Games come out. Diablo 3 has been out (On May 15Th) and I have been going at it every free time am getting, which is a LOT. To think I tried to ditch my sister's birth day (May 14Th) dinner thinking I wouldn't be online for the launch of the game.

Past few days has been really hectic. Getting around 3 - 4 hours of sleep. I have been going on for more than 24hrs without sleep. Work, come home game till sun rises and back to work. Come home for lunch and get like 30mins of sleep, back to work. After finishing work come home, sleep for like 2 hours or so till everyone else arrives and then BAM! at it again but hopefully the staying awake thing is finished, we are going to be pulling off all nighters on Thursday nights only. That's the plan for now.

So once again, sorry for the scarcity of me.

If you feel the need to know what this Game is about, please refer to this Wiki link ---> http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Diablo_III




With Lotsa Love,
Azzam P. Mohamed.

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Untitled


I bet we were never created to be morning people. Waking up with the sunrise & going to stupid work.

This moment when I wake up & do not feel anything. The moment of Unfeelingness. It is amazing, cannot explain it in any other way. If some hot woman comes and strips bare in front of me, I wouldn't give a damn.

Maybe this isn't an Unfeelingness, maybe this is my "I don't give a Shit" feeling moment. This needs to be thoroughly investigated.

For the religious peeps: Waking up for fathis namaadh and going back to sleep works! There is no problem with that. (No Sun up to annoy Eyes: POINT!)

My body is in auto mode! I wake up at 7 even though it is an off day. If I sleep for more than 7 or 8 hours I get headaches. What have I become? I used to pull 14 Hours+ of sleep without any headaches, just getting up for pee & prayer breaks. Office has ruined me. Too systematic and all on time.

aaah well It's a Love Hate relationship.

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Nonsense Ramblings





Was bored and going through some draft in my blog & discovered this. Do not even remember why I wrote it all. Good read though.


Do not remember what I did on the day I was born and come to think of it, never asked my Mother and Father about the happenings of that day. February 3rd of the year 1988. Have a big Brother and Sister. And that is our beloved Family of Five. Am like the spoiled brat in the family.

I remember the first day of School, Dad on his cycle. I was holding tightly looking around here and there. There it was, Ameer Ahmed School. Blue just like the blue shorts I was wearing and the badge on my shirt. So many other kids. Dad dropped me off to the classroom and started with the legendry advice. Seems like Mom and Dad wrote this piece of advice together before they had kids. It goes something like this, " Behave, do not touch other kids stuff without their permission, not to be a nuisance to the aunty. " saying this he left.
If I remember correctly I stood on the spot for like a minute and started to cry and ran after dad. I seriously do not remember why I started to cry. Then dad took me to the class room again and told me to stop crying and it will be not long before he comes to pick me up to go home. In fact it was not that bad, we learned about how sound works when glass tubes were filled, each one with different levels of water... and there are some vague memories.

Life as a kid was fun and mostly and always got what I wanted. Did mention I was a spoiled brat. Being the youngest helped. Never was good with sharing stuff. Then school came, another environment, with another whole bunch of new people. Unfamiliar people. Soon to be whom you will count on and love. Lots of hyperactive running around and singing, and the new amazing thing: NUMBERS! Always wondered why it is unlimited. I seemed to have started growing my own character/attitude there: School. Even though I learned a lot in school, I learned more from my parents. Always guided and advised me. Well I was stubborn and still am. A bit.

Mom would shout and scream to wake me up to go to school. She has a Clock which she would make it show the time to what she wanted. Early Morning and on the clock it would be like afternoon. Yes! I fall for that trick each and every time.

Never a worry in the world, always fun and games. My brother was like a silent statue or so, when people are around. Then there are times when we would have karate' fights! He would hang me upside down on places, and in the background mom would be going “Quiet it down you two!!! ". It was so much fun. Then there are my sisters. Yup, besides my blood related sister, there are two more sisters. Love towards reading and writing came from them I guess. And the more reason why sometimes my feminine side comes up (Will go deep into this theory of the feminine side later). Well it was not all happy and fun. There were unhappy times.

After Ameer Ahmed came Kalaafaanu School, I joined the Quran Club. One more thing, Grade 4, the teacher taped my mouth: because I talked too much in class. That day the teacher talked to Mom and despite the fact she was talking to mom about me, I interrupted and mentioned the part about finishing all Home Works and getting A's, which kind of fueled the fire.
After that day I learned a good lesson. Never going over board AND do not get caught. This lesson I learned has helped me so far. Never did my parents have to come to school to hear a complaint from my teachers. In here I kind of started to learn how to make conversations with others,
I even had a crush on this cute girl, think it was in Grade Two. Shafaahath, think that is her name. I always remember her asking me for my ruler. And she did this stupid thing, when the teacher told to leave space in between words, she wrote one word in one line. That is a lot of space. Now that is Young Love!!! Always wonder what she would be like now. How I would like to meet her.
Point to be noted, learned new things on my own. Experienced how to get along with others. At the end of Grade Five, God came.

Ghiyaasudhin School, everyone got separated. Girls and Boys. I for one changed a lot here, got my nickname. Almost everyone called me by that name and lost my real name on the way. Here I got to know a lot of people. Lot of characteristics. Bullies, jokers, emo's and many more.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Loosing Touch with Reality


I think I am finally loosing it, this three day weekend proved to be just bad. Saturday night ended up with me sleeping and worst is I somehow visualize the bed and pillows as people or beings.

I seem to have started making my own conversations inside my head and I seem to be naming stuff too. Lets not forget about the hour I just sat in my Chair looking at the fan.

The head is not a place of sanctuary anymore; my head seems to be more of an asylum, keeping a lot of beings or sides or entities at bay…

Monday, November 2, 2009

Life! As Pompi knows it...


One Year,Employed. I have decided to write a blog entry. on how to thank some people.

*i am thankful that god answered my prayers and gav me a job :D
*i am thankful that my mom keeps up with my fussing and with how i wear different kind of socks each day.(white one feet another black) she doesnt like that and how i keep my room a mess
*i am thankful that dad allowes me to take his bike when i go to work and he waits till four to call me to get it back.
*i am thankful for a sister who accompanies me to lunch almost every day and gives me money when i ask her. even though i complain all the time when she asks me to do something
*i am thankful for my brother who pays my mobile bill.
*i am thankful for an awesome mailing buddy who keeps me going on at work with her mails...
hmmmm who else... aa yes!
*i am thankful for Una/Kanbo/Num for helping me out with hospital stuff at any time i call them.
*i am thankful for having friends who give twisted advice on work ethics, namely; faari, rimaan.
and thank you god for once again allowing me to hav all this. and i mite have missed some... but alls good. any how...

i seriously dont know why i am getting hyped about this but i am, maybe there shudnt be a reason for it. oh and ya! FOR ALL THE PEOPLE WHO SAID I WUDNT LAST EVEN FOUR MONTHS!!! IN YOUR FACE! aaahaaa...awesomeness .. ...ok.all my salaans shud hav reseted now..gonna check if it has.. YES IT HAS!i even have 30day annual leave... muahahah 60days totaly that i could stay away from work. 30 days innaane dhoo salaan..hehehe so evil..but since i hav annual leave.. i guess ill lay off salaans...but i dunno why i shud take annual leave aslu... will they allow me to take it day by day..hehe salaan bunaahen.

October 27th 2008, Azzam Mohamed got Employed

Thank you For Reading...

Picture taken from a flicker, nainaa...awesome pics she has

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Al Supreme


So...This ones about God. One of the topics I love to talk about and discuss. So who is God? Some extra terrestrial being? or just an idea? or a thought? or just the superior one who created all and has the power to dismantle it all. I have thought about this many a times and even did some looking into in the religions that say there is a god and how they describe him. There is basically one major concept common in them. A higher being or in some others, a lot of higher beings.

Well for me, I believe there is a God, Why? my answer might sound like one in the books in School. Look around, everything which is up and down in the depths. To be able to exist and rotate in this perfect cycle. Without a creator all of the things around us can not exist. I can not come to an understanding in which, where everything would just be there on its own. There has to be a creator. The skies above, floating up above, Without falling on our heads. Who can imagine a building just erupting out of no where just like that. Someone builds it. These are some of the logical reasons.

And something I can not explain by showing proof, at times of need or a call for help, when I think that everything that a mere human can do is done and nothing can be done, I seem to call out for this unknown being, for help, for him to save em, for him to undo it, for him to take the pain away. This is one of the times i feel out to God passionatly.
And then there are the times when I achieve something, do something which gives happyness to myself, I thank him for it. Or something good happens to a fellow kin of mine.
But these are just feelings inside me, nothing i can hand out to show. Based on words.

So there is a God now, but how would you know which one to put your faith in. Through out the ages, people have told stories of prophets, who comes to pass out Gods words. In others there seem to have happened that God/Gods/Goddesses lived among human beings, fought wars, and some have even fallen down by the hands of humans. It is as if there is a whole lot of variety to choose from.

Each one of them are tagged with something called Religion. I will state some of the Religions that I have gone through:
*Christianity
*Islam
*Judaism
*Hinduism

What is a Religion? Gods Will. Rules, guidlines God has told mankind to follow. or religion could be said to the way of life. How a person lives his life.

To be continued...

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Back to the Hole


Bah! I have decided that am going to stop the txt’s after a certain someone was very much concerned about them. Any how these are the last ones I got. Have not written the ending entry. which will come soon. So without further delay..

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December 28th 2008
Day 14 today marks the day! Two months and still going on. Someone get that trucks number that just hit me. Urg! But it is not possible. These kinds of mornings just kill me inside as if someone slaps me to death. Wish there was a sleeping room here.
Ps. how can these people smile!
Journal Closed 8:09am

December 29th 2008
Day 15, it’s a holiday! Hunting we will go! Hunting we will go! La la laaa laa hunting we will go! Today my journey is going to take me to the brave ocean! Onwards with my brethren! To the promised waters we march!
Ps. Am going fish hunting.
Note, one of the few happy entries.
Journal closed 6:47am

December 30th 2008
Day 16 my boss is not here! His always the first to come here! Think he worships this place. Aaa well am like wide awake now. Can’t even day dream. Oh crap his here. Pfftt spoke/written too soon I guess. And yes it’s another day at work without any work to do.tadaa!!urrgg!
Ps. Yesterday was awesome. Happy belated new year/hijree
Journal closed 8:18am

December 31st 2008
Day 17 Thursday Friday holiday Thursday Friday holiday times 99+. I am wide awake. Bored but not hungry. A song running through my head: just chill chill just chill. A song from maine pyar kyu kiyaa. The urge to do the dance moves. As it seems tomm will be new year. I have thunk this idea. All my subscribers to write what is in their head and send them to me. To 7775***. So hope to read you alls txt’s tomm. Happy new year. Time to get the ice-cream bucket and watch Indian drama series tonight.
Ps. All txts sent will be only readable by me and no one else. So doo eeet.
Journal closed 10:03am

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